something has to remind me of you. and yeah i have to be emotional about you.. how long ago it was and it still happens. damn i wish i could tell my brain just to stop.
dude its even almost your birthday actually its going to be in the few hours. should i call you and keep reminding me of what i dont want to be reminded of. how come i get reminded of something so old and so heartbreaking instead of reminding myself that i have a homework assignment due. how come even when im drunk dead. or faded high lifted all i think about is you. yeah you say alcohol makes people forget but then why does it make me remember. i dont understand that. i thought when i started that stuff all my feelings of depress would just all wash away and it wouldnt even matter. but it still does. i just thought the world of blogspot got to learn what i go through. and i hope that you know what i go through. even with my best friend the guy who i can always talk to about anything realize it and say to me
"hey dude you might think im annoying saying this but i think having that girl on your mind isnt great he knew i wasnt my regular self."
i cant believe he told me that and it was a shocker. if you remember you got a call from me a few days ago what was stupid about that was i was drunk stupid punched in the face about to probably say something that i would regret. good thing i remembered you didnt answer.
i keep thinking to myself that i need to stop this but maybe your the only one to help me maybe it might help. please hit me up after you read this ill be waiting..
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