maybe if i walk on a path like this something good might happen.
the lamest of the lame comes out from me haha
wishes at 11:11
my christmas list to santa
a prayer for a blessing
and thinking of a new year's resolution
ohh all i want is someone special. someone to keep my head straight. someone who would look at me the same even for all the shit i did or i am doing and just say fuck it fuck the negative and just find every bit of the positive and put it on me. someone who can change me im fucked up damn it and no one realizes it but one person. its like no one tries to help people anymore but i guess i cant blame people about that. a special someone that would realize that every day, every hour, every minute, and every second she's on my mind and even though i already treat her special but just with that extra effort i can make her extra special. she doesn't cheat i won't cheat. and even though we may argue but shit what couple doesn't but then again only some fix it and for damn sure i will fix it even maybe if it means i have to take the blame just to make it stop. i need someone special in my life again someone to get the stupid shit in my past out of my life. someone i can rub in peoples faces and then they realize that what i have is something they wish they can have also. i thought i had that. guess i was wrong.
its so much harder trying to find someone like this now because ever since the last one you want better am i right? i will find someone better i want to say it will make you feel jealous but i know thats just bullshit haha so scratch that. you might think im ranting away but im being serious i keep telling my friends about you and they only thing they always say is that oh ive never met but man dude sounds like a "bitch" i don't comment after that because you always will still be a learning lesson in my life. and im going to say thanks and no thanks. thanks for helping me realize that i can keep a long relationship and being able to fight from cheating on you. no thanks because of all the sacrifices ive had fucking my friends over. causing me straight out depression and wasting the last few months because you found you supposedly happy ending. no im not talking shit im just saying the truth coming from my mouth might not be the same as yours but whatever.
an angel from above probably too much to ask for.
a christmas present i can just unwrap and she will be there talk about impossible
all my wishes from 11:11 come true. probably even more impossible than the ones before
a blessing and a push forward that maybe i might run into that special someone haha PLEASE!
well this post actually made me want to post more. maybe ill get on this more
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